I cannot force anything. It would be selfish. Thus I have decided to just remain quiet. I am hurting, but I would not show it. I only hope that there are people who would understand, people who do not want only me to understand them, but to also try to understand me.

I am sick of being the one who tries to make everything better, even though it is not my fault. I am sick of people trying to show that I am asking for more than I deserve. People say that it is hard being them, acting like I am purposely trying to misunderstand them. But have they ever thought about how hard it is being me? Being the one to clean up everyone’s mess, trying to make things normal, even though an explanation is owed to me?

My principles and yours are not the same. Just because you hold on to your principles, does not make mine wrong. If I can try to understand you, and do things that I would never do for anyone else before this for you, why can’t you do the same for me?

Aku memang macam ni, tapi aku try.