A little while ago something unexpected happened.
I was not expecting it to come from the person that it came from, because all this while I thought that I was the only one feeling that way.
I thought that I was alone, and that that person would not like my thoughts and opinions, but on the contrary, that person shared the same thoughts as me.

It was unexpected.
And yet, it helped me let go of what I've been wanting to let go off for this past year.

Do you know the feeling that you get when you want something so badly but you know that you can never get it because it is not meant for you? Because you know that the thing that you want is meant for someone else, and even though you know that you're never going to get it, deep down inside you're hoping as hell that in the end you'll have it?

At this point you end up miserable, because the only thing that you really want and was hoping for is the only thing that you can't get, because it used to belong to someone else. Someone that you don't like even. That's what makes it all even worse. You become angry, and keep blaming yourself and your faults, and end up thinking that you probably don't deserve anything.

And then you suddenly realise that you actually do have it, and that it has been with you all this while, it's just that you were too busy lamenting over the fact that you do not own it to realise that it's with you now?

And because of that one realisation, all the bottled up anger and feelings of self-depreciating goes away almost instantly? Because you finally realise that one thing, you are immediately able to forget about all that's happened in the past, and immediately regain your self-esteem. You become happy again.

The void is gone.
I won't be thinking about things that I shouldn't think about now.