It's hard sometimes for me to really understand where I am now.

I seem to have lost so much, especially taking into who I was during high school and who I am now.

But I also seem to have gain a lot, the friends that I have, the experiences that I have gained.

I've lost my drive, my ambitions, the pathway that I was supposed to go through.

But I've gained precious friends that have taught me a lot, gone through hard and sad memories, friends that I can call up anytime for life.

I've changed, and I don't know if it's for the good or not.